I really just wish I could live inside of SATC. The only sucky thing about the movie was realizing just how non-fabulous life is at the moment. As Carrie referred to the her & Big's marriage as "needing to add back the sparkle," I've realized I need some more sparkle back in my life. Just reaching a temporary lull, especially in this busy week. While I have complained about having nothing to do, now I've had this "busy" week. But I guess when I'm doing a lot of things without much purpose or passion it doesn't matter that I'm busy because rather than being fulfilling, it's just downright tiring.
I'm working on starting to go through all my stuff and what I'll need to take to move to Columbia in July, and thinking ahead has definitely lifted my spirits. After having my own place and a separate life from home it's just hard to revert back without feeling like I'm taking a step back in life. I think when it gets down to the core of it I just really miss college. I miss being carefree and going places on a whim, and actually having places to go to. I miss going out. I miss being social. I miss living with my best friends, and I really miss meeting new people.
The upside on moments like this is realizing what I do want in my life. I do want to live somewhere busy and full of people. I do want a big closet. I do want to be in a profession where I'm constantly working with and meeting new people. I do want to be constantly learning everyday and getting new tasks to put onto my goals list.
While I love summer I'm secretly wishing for a fast forward to July so that I can move and get things started again--being stagnant is killing me. The worst part is it's only been just barely a month so far. Luckily I have many fun things on my agenda, and many great friends to keep me company until then!
Time to get some shut eye so I can be a bit more "sparkly" tomorrow!